So what if I cannot meet a mortgage payment?
So what if my child doesn’t get better from a life threatening condition?
So what if my parents divorce?
So what if I never get married?
So what if I end up crippled?
So what if my sibling never comes back home?
So what if my spouse leaves our marriage?
So what if I end up flat broke – bankrupt even?
So what if I lose all my assets?
So what if my health steadily declines and I eventually end up withering away?
So what if WordPress decides to ban me from sharing the good news?
So what if I end up with no likes, no followers, no commenters?
So what if I end up like John, all alone on the island of Patmos?
So what if I’m put in jail and end up alone for many years like John Bunyan?
So what…so what…so what…!?!?!?
We all have so what moments.
I shared with a friend of mine this week one of my “so what” moment which friends, as I shared the issue, I realized it hinges on me being afraid. Yes. I said it. I was fearful that one of my so what moments may actually come to pass. Her response to me in a loving way not discrediting or belittling my fear, “so what if that happens.”
Knowing her response came from a safe place, Holy Spirit opened my eyes to see that I was “operating” from a place of fear.
I read a quote some years ago which said “What we fear the most is what we trust God with the least.” Ouch!
Nearly two years ago, my mom lost her job for eight months. All my life, my mom had been the primary breadwinner in our family. She through the grace of God has been able to effectively cover majority of the overhead costs in our home. About five months before her job ended, we bought a house. Anyone who has bought a house (or looking to get one) knows how financially exhausting and challenging the initial process can be. We poured nearly all (maybe all come to think of it) our resources into the purchase, the fixings, the stuffings and trimmings. In the back of my mind, I was like “I hope mommy never stops working or else…”
I shared with her this thought and she said the quote I shared with you.
It’s coming on two years since we have bought our home and though mom began working after 8 months of “dryness”, her income was literally cut in half. Yes. Half. Inspite of this, God has through His love and grace provided for us every single month. We have never gone to bed hungry. He has taken care of all our bills. Again, no savings to rely on. Nothing stashed to take from. Just a God who like He did with the widow Elijah visited, continued to let the flour and oil flow until the famine and drought ceased.
He has provided.
He continues to provide.
Now, at another crossroad I realize I still struggle with fear of the mortgage being late. The effect on my credit score. The looming possibility of foreclosure. But…
God has been faithful thus far, why would He suddenly enter the position or realm of being unfaithful. Scripture declares, He is God and cannot lie. We are also told that He honors His Word even above His name. Last time I checked, His Word says the righteous will never be forsaken nor His seed beg for bread. He also said He is the Faithful God, keeping His promises to thousands of generations.
Sure, I’m called to be a good steward but more than that, I’m called to trust Him and let Him do the job of providing and figuring it all out.
What is your “so what” issue friend? You don’t have type it below but know that our God is bigger than our “so what issues”. In fact, if we combine ALL our “so whats” – HE IS BIGGER THAN THEM ALL.